Evening
I’ve been meaning to write a blog for a week now, but everytime i go to i’m either in a crap mood or really need to rant.. which none of that would be suitable for a blog for many reasons. At the moment i’m in an Ok mood, but with streaks of depression.
My Thoughts recently:
- My Job
- My Living situation
- The one girl I want
- Christmas
- Next year
- My Afro
Reasons for thinking these things, My Job, i’m working at so many places at the moment i don’t know what i’m doing. I’m doing propertly development with my uncle building a house, Decorating my other Uncles house, plumbing at my 3rd uncles house, Web design for some new shop and some marketing company, and British Home Stores wants me to come back for the Christmas period to cover staff shortages, all of that while still running two companies. Few months ago all i was expecting to do was being doing the odd lighting for a event and quite settled down without being in a rush all the time, but now i don’t even have for myself.
My living situation, I was living my with Sophie and when we broke up about a month ago i moved back in with my parents, but because there was no room there i was going to have to sleep on the sofa, which is ok because it’s a bed but not good for something perminate, so as soon as christmas and new year has passed i’m going to find a place of my own, or with a friend.
The girl i want, i’m really confused about this and i honestly dont know what to do about it, part of me whats to tell her how i feel about her and the other just wants to sit aside and admire from a distance. I wouldn’t mind knowing how she feels about me though, even if it isn’t what i want to hear. But i suppose if it isn’t what i want then it will still end up good because i’ll know it won’t go anywhere and i can move on, but if it is good then wahey! I kept it all to myself about her but recently something happened and now i’m thinking should i, does she, what if etc so blah to it.
Christmas, Is now 31 days away At first I really wasn’t looking forward to it because it’s my first christmas alone, well not alone i’ve got my family but for the past 4 years it’s always been Sophie and I. It’s just a nice feeling to wake up next to the one you love on christmas day and opening the stocking your brought for each other, opening your crackers together, watching a christmas film together, all the usuall christmas tasks. It doesn’t really bother me at the moment, but i think it will on the day. I just hope i’ve got someone to ring in the morning and say ‘Merry Christmas I Love You’. I Started shopping for christmas today, brough my mum, dad, sister and one of my brothers there presents, i would say what i brought but i won’t incase they read the blog. I’m going to buy about 20 tins of minture heroes from Cash and Carry and just hand them out to the first friends i see a week before christmas. But of course the special friends will get something extra. Today i was thinking about buying gifts for friends and thought should i? because most of them won’t get anything for me, but then i thought bugger it, christmas is only once a year, and it’s all about the giving not the receiving so i’ll buy everyone something.
Next year, i’m planning on sorting out my career, so i’m not doing odd jobs for anyone, and so then i can consentrate on my lighting work, I want to be out of my parents house by the end of January, and i theres a few other things i want to do but there more personal issues.
My Afro, is still not cut, so it’s starting to bug me which i must do soon.
So yeah, that’s me recently, quite a long’en
Bye x